A friend recently challenged me on a New Years resolution kinda question (or should I say series of questions):
Her challenges were:
1) What do you want to grow in?
2) What do you want more of?
3) What do you want to let go of?
And, for the sake of transparency, and to encourage you all in your own thinking… Here are my answers.
What do I want to grow in? I want to grow in the knowledge and understanding what it means to have faith and trust in God. For me personally, I need to take myself out of the drivers seat and attempt to grasp the hugeness of who God is and what it means to just trust. Trust.
What comes with that is an understanding that I am not on my own, and that at any time, I can ask for help and wisdom.
What do I want to let go of? I want to do my best to let go of the need to control. To control my family, my future, my picture perfect image of my life should look like (or at least what I imagine it to be). I think this need to control is more exhausting than I realize and while I love order and neat and tidy, I need to relax and just be.
I also need to let go of my obsession with my phone. I really do. This obsession with checking apps mindlessly must GO.
What do I want more of? I want more of a life rhythm. I am a typical number 7 on the enneagram. Outgoing, Adventurer, GO GO GO, experience, experience, experience. But with two little people at home, a new year with a new house, building renovations and and and, this spontaneous wild at heart never-say-no girl, must learn to sloooooow doooown. I need more of a groove, of a rhythm.
Everyday when I pick up my 3.5yr old from play school he asks me where we’re going. To which I reply ‘home’. And he’s always disappointed. As it turns out, the constant trips (post school) to the grocery store, aquarium, ice cream place, smoothie shop etc. has encouraged a little person with rather high expectations for an adventure every day.
“Sorry buddy, it’s home for peanut butter sarmies. Let’s go.”
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